On putting things in perspective

posted on: Dienstag, 5. November 2013

"And kid, you’ve got to love yourself. You’ve got wake up at four in the morning, brew black coffee, and stare at the birds drowning in the darkness of the dawn. You’ve got to sit next to the man at the train station who’s reading your favorite book and start a conversation. You’ve got to come home after a bad day and burn your skin from a shower. Then you’ve got to wash all your sheets until they smell of lemon detergent you bought for four dollars at the local grocery store. You’ve got to stop taking everything so goddam personally. You are not the moon kissing the black sky. You’ve got to compliment someones crooked brows at an art fair and tell them that their eyes remind you of green swimming pools in mid July. You’ve got to stop letting yourself get upset about things that won’t matter in two years. Sleep in on Saturday mornings and wake yourself up early on Sunday. You’ve got to stop worrying about what you’re going to tell her when she finds out. You’ve got to stop over thinking why he stopped caring about you over six months ago. You’ve got to stop asking everyone for their opinions. Fuck it. Love yourself, kiddo. You’ve got to love yourself."
- found here

Yesterday was a bad day. No major catastrophe happened, it just felt all dreary and wrong. There was a greyish rainy day outside my window, an overflowing inbox, a bunch of stuff to do for a presentation and the realization that my budget this month wouldn’t even last me if I had pasta and tomato sauce every single day for lunch and dinner. At the latest when I figured I had forgotten my keys at home, realized I never would be able to make it to my Pilates session in time and forced the boyfriend to leave his uni course early, because he has the spare keys, I was a frustrated mess with soaking wet socks, a helpless maiden waiting for the white knight on an old rusty bike. 

And just while I was was standing there, in front of my apartment in the rain, I quickly checked my tumblr dashboard and this text came up. An elderly lady passed my way, carrying shopping bags, humming a melody. I heard a group of boys cheering, maybe watching a soccer game with the windows open. And suddenly I really liked the rain, glistening on the cobblestone. I thought about how easily I got caught up in bad feelings these last days, how often I felt sad or frustrated or constricted. And how, at any given time, I should’ve just stepped away from this feeling, said "fuck it" and brewed some green tea to put things back in perspective.

On a side note: My new found Zen lasted about twenty minutes until I got into a fight with the boyfriend over the question if we should have a pasta dish or apple cinnamon pancakes (my vote!) for dinner. I guess, there is still a lot to learn for me.  

12 Kommentare:

  1. Ach je, mein Tag war gestern auch nicht so toll - ich hoffe, du startest heute frisch und fröhlicher in einen neuen!:) Was du gehört hast, war bestimmt wirklich Fußball, FC Köln hat gestern irgendwie 4:0 gewonnen, mein Freund sah das auch.;) Also, genieß den Dienstag und alles Liebe
    Julia

    PS: Die Apps für die Schrift auf meinen Bildern sind Rhonna Designs und Mystik. Die erste benutze ich öfter, weil sie so so schön ist!

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    1. Jaaa, ich habs im Laufe des Folgetages dann auch noch herausgefunden :D Und danke für den Tipp, die Schrift werde ich mir mal genauer anschauen :)

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  2. the first thing i read this morning... i'm so glad i did as i am feeling entirely melancholic. thank you for sharing such a beautiful piece of writing and your story, it put things into perspective for me :)

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    1. aww... thank you, darling! it`s funny how sometimes we come across just the right things in just the right time :)

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  3. der text am anfang ist wunderschön! danach sollte man wirklich leben :)

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    1. wenn`s denn manchmal nicht so schwierig wäre ;D

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  4. love this post.
    i had a similar things going on yesterday, but it was music that put things in perspective. just imagine a grumpy luka with wet socks on the tram being late for uni. and then.. ludovico einaudi let the world shine in such a new light. people seemed to move with grace and purpose, and i recognized the unfriendly faces as part of this big puzzle and i noticed how i am in awe of this big puzzle.

    getting lost in moodswings and bad thoughts is okay from time to time, but its important to get yourself out of there at some point. love the way it happened to you that day....

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    1. i love ludovico einaudi! and yes, there is nothing more important than knowing when to stop wallowing in self pity and focussing on the great things again.

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  5. ha! i had a bad day too yesterday. everything just went wrong. but then, the world still turning.

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  6. tolles foto ♥
    lg
    Sarah
    www.sanzibell.com

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  7. This is such a beautiful post. I think everyone needs that reminder more than we realize.

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